anyone ever feel spiritually numb? no amazing life lessons, no earth shattering spiritual truths coming to light... nothing i can feel anyway. i hope God is moving somewhere under the radar.
part of this may be due to a slacking off in getting alone with God. i'm trying to change up my alone time with Him by praying in my mind and heart instead of always using my journal to write out my prayers. this was an extremely helpful practice that i started when i felt like God was a million miles away and i wanted to be honest. but now i think it's time for something different. i don't want to end up feeling stuck, and like i can't pray without a pen and my trusty journal.
that said, it's been very difiicult for me to pray coherently in the mornings (even with the coffee). i trail off into thoughts about the day ahead or thoughts about last night's dreams. i guess being coherent isn't a prerequisite for God to listen to me. i just have to trust that, "the same Lord is Lord of all, abounding in riches for all who call on Him." kids with a.d.d. have always baffled me, but most mornings that's what i feel like trying to talk with God.
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weird that you mention that. i was thinking the same thing today. i was remembering this view in yosemite that had all of these beautiful green trees, and one big dead brown one...i was thinking today how often i feel like that one big dead tree...the only one not growing when everyone else around me is sprouting new leaves.
i think it just comes with our personality too. always wanting answers and constantly seeking direction often leaves us feeling as though we have neither.
thanks for the comment kim.
there is much to be said for the fact that you continue to wake up at 6am each morning to spend that first hour alone with God, even if it feels bland and incoherent right now. i must say, your consistency in just WAKING UP to pray each morning is a challenge to me. i'm guessing you probably hear my alarm go off at about the time you're waking up for prayer. and then you probably hear it again about nine minutes later and again and again and again....
of course you already know that its normal to go through these 'blah' times. thanks for still being consistent and silently challenging me by your example.
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