why am i still awake?!?! have you ever experienced something, like a really good book or song and been like, "why do i even try? i will never be able to do something as great as that." i'm reading henry's list of wrongs and it inspired me to work on jude some more tonight. and then i get to working and i'm like, "this is so lame..." anyways, I know it's not about comparison. and we all need something to aspire too. i just feel so far behind. they say practice makes perfect though, right? or, practice makes better anyways. writing fiction is a hard discipline.

some of us saw cabin fever tonight. at first it seemed scary, but then it just got darkly and disturbingly hilarious. nathan said it seemed like the guys were sitting around, working on a serious horror/thriller script and got bored about halfway through it. like, "this sucks. let's just take it over the top." and boy they sure did. it wasn't "scary movie" funny though. it was dark and disturbing funny. i wouldn't necessarily recommend it, but i was glad it didn't end up being all pretentiously serious or something.

maybe i should go to bed...